The End of the Road

So this is goodbye.

When I started this blog about a year and a half ago, I was at a different place personally and professionally. As I have been rereading these post it has occurred to me that I am no longer this person.

Change is inevitable and should be embraced. If everything stayed the same we would still be living in slavery for  example. In the past year and a half I have grown both professionally and personally. But I am not done, I have not achieved anywhere near my full potential.

I feel as if I have outgrown this blog as well. It was created to describe my experiences living with my significant other at the time. That relationship had to end and so now must this blog.

In this new year, I look forward to building on this momentum and growing in other ways as well. So goodbye and thanks for reading.

Currently Living in the Future Not the Past.


*** New Blog Address***

http://thefrugalistaandthedachshund.blogspot.com/

FEAR

fear

/fi(ə)r/

Noun An unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat. While "working" today I had a kind of an epiphany. What if every thing I do in life is the result of me being afraid. I am easily frightened in general and this has strongly affected me throughout my life.I have never seen a horror movie. I sleep with the light on. I am literally held captive by my fear of  the unknown. What if fear is what has lead me to date people whom I have subconsciously realized will not make me happy. But the subsequent revelation that they are not going to make me happy makes it easier for me to deal with the break up. Getting your heart broken sucks. The one real time my heart was broken it was by my best friend. I let him into my heart and trusted him completely. I was shattered when that relationship ended. I have had relationships with literally nothing but assholes since then. My heart has not been broken since then.  I even had one guy tell me he treats me the way an asshole would because he knows that's what I go for. However I long for a relationship with someone who is my equal and respects and loves me, yet I constantly turn away from these men. I settle for less that than what I deserve because it feels safer. less passion less emotion less heartbreak.       Currently living in Fear